WHAT WOULD PEOPLE THINK?

Wow! what would people think?

I should have left that toxic friendship when I realized in my gut that it was wrong on all levels, should have blocked them on all socials, and kept moving, but people would think I’m bitter, they would think I’m childish, that I’m a hater. Goodness, people would think wrong about me.

I should have had the courage to walk away from that relationship sooner, but what would people think? They’d think I must suck real bad, that I couldn’t succeed at this one. People would think I’m such a terrible person; 2 weeks in, and I was already at the door. Oh my, people would think I’m the worst.

I wanted to wear that particular dress, dye my hair a specific color, show off a little skin, and smile like I had no worries, but what would people think? They’d think I’m showing off. Lord, they would think I’ve grown too proud. I suddenly moved overseas, and now I’m the crowned queen, but I am a queen. People would think I’ve always been the rude snub. Wow, people would think I’m vain.

I wanted to start a blog sooner, change careers and start doing what I love most, but they’d think I’m stupid for the wrong reasons. They’d think I had no clear path. I wanted to post more fun photos, but people would think my life’s perfect; they’d think I didn’t cry a while ago because my heart broke. People will think I’m cold and evil. People would think!

“(insert your first name), people will always think. We humans never stop thinking about something. People only stop when they’re dead. That’s when they’re no longer conscious of anything, but in the meantime, they’d always criticize, analyze, tear apart what they don’t know, hate what they can’t understand. People would always do that. Always!”

Maybe you’re a lot like me, who held back a lot because, for me, it was always about what people would think. Not necessarily what they said, but the fear that they’d judge me wrongly in their minds and I wouldn’t ever hear the words and defend myself, but I’d most definitely feel it in the way they related to me. That was the scary part for me, what people thought of me.

Here’s the ‘me’ that would go out of my way to preach that what people thought shouldn’t even matter, but I was still secretly bothered about it on the days I let my mind down.

People would always think of something, but it doesn’t have to stop you. Yes, yes, it’s not entirely easy to shed off that consciousness, but you’ve got to do it. Please do it for yourself. Live your life to the fullest. Be happy; heaven is indeed within us. Try your hands on everything you have a passion for. Love and soak yourself in the things that make you smile, in the true friends you make, in joyful moments, in your good plans for your future. Just do what gives you peace and brings joy.

“I can assure you that people would never stop thinking but it’s not your responsibility how far their minds decide to run. Let it pace while you race. Everybody will be fine.”

In other news, I should get my first tattoo. Now people would think I’ve gone wild, but oh well.

Your turn, what’s holding you back?